My hair is shorter than ever. My clothes are black with a personal quote – have you ever regretted pleasing people? It’s from one of the songs on our second album. I’m lost in time, which means I’m working with something important constantly, but still there’s so much still to be done. Like blogging. Take photographs the way I like to photograph. Declutter and write mails. I take one step at a time, I think that’s the most important thing for my health and well being right now.
Today I were to tidy my bedroom, photograph it for the sale of the house, edit and send them. Deliver a key, do my daily morning routine and deal with a world filled with uncomfortable triggers. And my daughter got sick and had to stay home from school. But still I made it all, and at the same time I’ve been a very comforting and happy mother. She’s my best medicine right now.
There’s so much I want to tell you about the people I met in Stockholm. How I think about the fact that there might be some people around in my neighborhood too that could match me just as good. The deep and personal conversations that never ends, the way we think business, the way I get inspired and greeted… That’s what I want in my life now: the amazing conversations. Without judgement and with curiosity and humbleness big time. Those without filter, the honest ones, the crappy ones, the ones that touches my soul and heart, and those who comes from my heart and soul. I want to share with those who can take it. On Monday I have a phone meeting with someone important who can make this happen – letting me sharing more than ever, because I need to do it for others and myself, and I’m ready. I’ll get back to that.
I have so many photos from my days with Sofia and Lotta, and I will show you. Of course I will, I’ve just spent a little longer to get done than what I first thought. Still working on it. Loving to work on it since it brings me right back into something very special.
I’m very tired every night, and it’s fine. I’m not filled to the edge with anxiety, which is great. I’m still here despite it all, and I’m never to give up. There’s such a magical road every day, no matter what it brings. It doesn’t feel like it every second, actually far from it, but I want to try and see it all more as a mysterious journey.
My biggest task at the moment is to let the thoughts be just that – not deny them or push them away, and not instinctively follow the urge or craving to get lost in thoughts. It always ends up in something destructive if I do. That’s my Friday night thoughts, and thanks for being patient with me. I love to have you hanging around on my blog and Instagram. I wish you a soft and accepting weekend.