My self-esteem has been like z e r o for quite some time, and I’m getting tired of it. The feeling you just wanna go to bed and sleep, and wake up when it’s all fine. Sleep trough weeks if necessary. It feels good to meditate every morning, make juice, have a run some days and I’ve started a new painting. It does good, so I would have felt even worse without those “acts of kindness” towards myself. But the rest… all the spinning thoughts and feelings and chaotic inner self… How I’m too freakin’ stressed and filled with anxiety to use all the smart things I’ve learned to keep myself on the path… Some of you will know what I’m talking about. Some of you not. I feel happy for those you can’t relate.