I wonder when I am to get done with the hallway, which have been partly painted for quite some time. I wonder if it helps to cross my fingers when there’s something I really want to happen. I wonder what makes me so tired and strong at the same time, and why I’m not afraid of love anymore. While I feel kind of stuck in a pile of things I never get to sort out in my new home, and wonder about life while trying to live my best in the present, I drink coffee, go to the theatre and travel to Prague. I got back on Friday, and I’m going back there in the end of October too, because why not.
My calendar is as empty and clean as a calendar can be. I’ve even cancelled the Gråblomst & Lott workshop which where to be held in my pad November, because of my health. I basically can’t take a single deadline anymore. Hopefully it will get better again. But I accept it the way it is, and maybe it will give me a nice endless flow in my painting, writing and music making.
Still working on the hallway. I wonder if I’m might going to make a painting directly on the wall or in the ceiling in this room. Time will show. I won’t make any plans, suddenly it just happens because it feels right in that given time.
Things that never seem to find its place on the wall or on a hanger. Everything are leaning to the wall or hung on something else, and most of it is very unpractical. Some days I love it, some days I hate it.
But coffee I never seem to hate, and we are good friends, the coffee and I.