I like to feed you and serve you what I got in my pocket, but lately it’s been too private. Too hard, totally overwhelming. The four last weeks have felt like only four days, but at the same time as four years. I mean – how much is allowed to happen at once? I have so many things I have to do, and when I want to paint I can’t find the peace to do it. But I have got this far on my first self-portrait, and it will always be the painting I did in the most difficult time of my life (I hope it doesn’t get more difficult…).
The drapery thing is new to me, but I wanted this to be me sitting. I don’t know why, but maybe it’s for finding calmness when it storms? Because I have it – the calmness. The solutions are coming to me all the time, yet the difficulties. It’s not a dark black hole in front of me, I want you to know. And I want to take you on my journey! And it starts tomorrow… by offering you something very special.
In the middle of everything, I will take my concept further and higher, and I will evaluate everything from scratch. This seed I planted by starting this blog two years ago will start to bloom more and more. I was thinking the best way of focusing on the “new birth” of my work and blog is to travel somewhere with the intention of making my new strategy. A different environment and a concrete task to solve in a given time. So I decided I will do this during nine days in Stockholm in the beginning of April, and I’m going to live in Elsa and Pontus’ fab apartment all by myself. Drinking coffee and eating cake, and hopefully catch up with this person while I’m there! And with no doubt share my new plans with you as I make them, and all the good and the bad and everything in between that happens in my life. Are you ready!? But first check in here Saturday night, you might be very interested…
Maren, sometimes I find clarity in my most difficult times. When I feel like I can’t take anymore or bear the weight, a light breaks through. I hope that happens for you. I am so thrilled to hear about your plans! I’m also trying to figure out where I want to take my ideas, so I can’t wait to hear how yours unfold. xo
Hi! How exciting to really dig up all new ideas and try to create something that will work better! There’s clarity there, thanks, but I need even more of it! Patience, I guess… I’m getting better at it (almost) every day 😉 Good luck on your ideas Sarah!
Hej, vad är egentligen ditt yrke, alltsa varifran lever du?
Hei Sonja! Det jeg lever av er en kombinasjon av å selge originale malerier, prints av malerier, fotografere (foto og litt film) samt musikk. Men musikk tjener jeg ingenting på i det hele tatt, he he;) I tillegg har jeg en “base” med en delvis uføretrygd (hva det heter i Sverige vet jeg ikke), men det er altså nedsatt arbeidsevne pga psykisk sykdom. Jeg vet at det kan være vanskelig å forstå hva jeg “egentlig” driver med, men håper dette gav deg svar på det du lurte på. God helg til deg! Maren Ingeborg
Tack du! Och lycka till med försäljning,alltsa jag hoppas du hittar en fin köpare, jag känner mig dig att det är hjärtskärande att sälja sitt hem 🙁
Tusen takk, det håper jeg også <3