This house – my heart and soul. My life, my work. My 24/7. Paintings have been made, music and films been recorded, big laughs and big tears. Big black holes and bright clear lights. Most of all – lots of love – it’s still in the walls, and it’s still within us. For each other and for ourselves. But we need to take more care of ourselves. Our health, mainly mine, is what stopped us in the end. The point where I can’t stretch myself any longer, and neither can he. And the part of it that makes this very special and “mysterious” is the love we still share, and yet we will not be a married couple any longer. I don’t deal with deep love so well, it feels like my curse in life. I have to step back and be on my own to build stability and control around my mental health. I don’t expect anyone to understand. It’s a lonely place to be.
My emotions and health I will write more about later, every time I have something in my heart that I feel can help others. But I have to help myself first, in order to help others, so maybe I will get a little quiet every now and then.
But then there’s all the practical things we have to sort out, and it feels like a full time job right now. With the big sorrow and loss on top of that. I wanted to keep Villa Betula because this is my base for all things I do, and all new plans for my concept were to take room in here. But the bank was thinking… For days… And it almost drove me crazy, but in the end it was a no. I did what I possibly could, but I guess there’s a meaning to it. It’s hard to believe this will take me to a better place, but I find strength in believing that these days.
It’s time to hand this dark hues and endless possibilities with this property over to someone else, and I was wondering if that might be you? I will give my readers and followers the opportunity to buy Villa Betula before we put it out in the “official” real estate market.
Don’t be afraid to send me an e-mail with your inquiry at firstname.lastname@example.org. Now that I know there’s no way to keep it, it will be a relief the day someone else decide to make it theirs <3